Part of my healing is listening to what my body needs at the present moment. When I talk about my body and health I instinctively try and simplify it to a basic sentence.
“I love my body, even when I don’t feel it love me.”
But it is not simple, it cannot be reduced to a single sentence. Loving this vessel doesn’t always mean it is in its most healthy state, these days its not. I live with invisible, undiagnosed illnesses. I know I am not alone in having serious health problems go unseen, undiagnosed, and misdiagnosed. Ive gone through endless loops dealing with the healthcare system. Western medicine has never been on my side, their treatments have never been right for me, and frankly i’ve been misdiagnosed more times than I have fingers on my hands and toes to count.
I realize most of these systems aren’t put in place to benefit or help people like me… Ive never relied on them, my momma used to cure me with sopas, Banos, and herbs for most things. Ive found slivers of solace in other natural remedies as well, it helps and living undiagnosed, you tend to have to cure yourself.
I will eventually recall my past experiences on here but for now I want to say what’s currently going on:
Im on week 3 of a reproductive flare up. My symptoms during this flare up are a third of what a “normal” “period” to me is like. The pain is more bearable but I have had constant aches and body inflammation for almost 20 days now. I’m left feeling like a speculator, outside of my own body. Its a numbing thing to have to go through constantly. I have always experienced a strong dissociation when it comes to my reproductive system. Recently, my disassociation has gotten a bit worse. Its not all bad, I have to rest.. A LOT. I dont mind rest though, i enjoy it. I am naturally a person that carries a lot of heavy bricks on their shoulders. So when I get a chance to rest, even if its forceful rest, I take it with a distinct ease. I have found a few natural things that have helped ease my symptoms and maintain more of a balance within my body.
Im going to make posts of the tinctures, herbs, supplements, and routines that have helped me not go crazy.