Its like the world only wants to show plants when they are blooming not declining. I know I’m not alone when i say i am guilty of neglecting my plants as well as my self.
My depression fluctuates quite often, added fibromyalgia pains to the mix and everything just becomes harder…
I stick pretty hardly to the words “everything is connected”, I see it firmly in the plants in my home. When I don’t give them the proper care, they get droopy, they dry up, and they get prone to little creatures from their mold. Kind of like humans!? When I don’t give myself the proper care, I get droopy and so does this vessel I live in. Sometimes I dont notice until its too late and I feel like I have to push that start over button with my health.
Sticking to routines is hard, I simply say get back on the saddle when you’ve felt enough time pass for yourself.. everything is hard enough in life.
TAKE IT EASY
Technically none of the plants we grow in our homes to make us feel better even belong there. They grow wild and free, attaching and proving for and in nature. They soak up their natural seasons because that’s where they are firmly grounded and rooted. No matter how much time I land in my lowest depression it seems these guys are as resilient as I am. They are a reminder of the resilience that lives inside me.
I notice them drooping when i’m in bed, sometimes I stare at them and hope they understand how tired my body feels. Even the routine of giving them their drink of water and care is something I struggle with sometimes. Waking up with pain as soon as light breaks through the windows, shatters a lot of my energy from the start. But the moment I do get out of bed and clean their leaves and give them a big ol drink of water, they spring back up and I feel gratitude. They make me feel important, its not just me that needs to get out of bed and get a drink of water, I have to provide that for myself and my plants and my two cats, Joffa and Sombra, but that’s a story for another time.
Plants and things, they aren’t much different than us. They’ve taught me a lot about my own patience and resilience. They teach me the importance of living, in the moment. Because I think we could all benefit from that drink of water. I know the routines I have set up in my life are key components in my well being, but as much as I know that, living with pain makes it extremely difficult to follow through. Its more than just taking things a day at a time, to me its about breathing, acknowledging the pains, and pushing through when I can. Because I can’t always push through so easily.